i don't know what should i say about today .
not happy nor sad .
am just moody .
was alone in my room for the whole afternoon ,
sit back and think about everything that happened in these few days .
people's heart and thinking are unpredictable .
when you're treating them with sincerity ,
they just don't give a damn .
i hate it when people don't understand my feelings .
people tend to recall you back about stuffs that hurt you the most .
are you dumb or something ?!
fine ,
maybe you just love seeing me getting sad or moody .
let's see in the future .
i won't give a fuck about anything you complaint about him .
and i'll keep bringing back all those ' happy ' memories to you !
you're simply a mood spoiler .
or should i say ,
you don't even deserve becoming my so called best friend .
at least others will comfort me and try to cheer me up .
but you're opposite !
faggot !
now ,
i should just keep quiet about everything .
though it really hurts inside ,
i'll still keep it myself .
telling you will only makes me feel that i'm dumb enough to let another person to hurt you once again !
everything about him has made me gone depressed all this while .
yet ,
you still ' care ' so much about our stuffs .
i don't need them !
all i wanna do now is forget about him and move on with my new life !
i've said that i;m officially done with him !
i'm not expecting anything from him anymore !
if he cared ,
he won't do all those shit !
dumbass !
frustrated !
i wanna leave this place so much !
staying here is like staying in a room fulled with shit !
no one knows how i feel inside !
only God knows !
i won't hope for anything from you anymore .
i just wanna calm myself down and move on!
God ,
i know You're always there ,
helping me when i fall .
i ask for your help now to let me to move on with the past .
in Jesus name we pray .
Amen .
- DREY -
09/12/2011 2306pm
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