我是女王 !: 痛

it feels so pain inside
i think it's time to give up.
Lord, please guide me.
tell me what should i do to protect myself.
i don't want this thing to spoil my holidays.
i just wannt live my life to the fullest,
not suffering from all this unpleasant stuffs.
Oh Lord, You're the one i can rely on now.
You're always there whenever i need You.
You never fail to cheer me up.
You're always there to help me up.
Yes, Lord.
i need You now,
i'm so down tonight.
is everything gonna be alright tomorrow?
i hope things like tonight will never happen anymore.
i don't wanna get hurt anymore.
in Jesus name we pray.
Amen.

i feel that there's still a certain distance between us.
i don't know what should i say about that.
i always feel that you're way up high,
and it's hard for me to catch you high up there.
sometimes,
i'm tired of waiting.
waiting for something that never comes true.
i hope everything turns out to be different.
but,
will this happens?
i really hope it will.
this is what i want,
this is what i prayed for.