不想说再见

心情在此时此刻 ， 烂到一个爆炸！
我原本以为一切都很好 ， 没有差错 。 
我是说原本。
i thought everything was under my control . 
but, i was wrong . 
you're the one controlling the whole thing . 
based on what happened all this while , 
i thought we're sort of stable .

things had changed since last night's prom night . 
at first , 
i'm darn happy cause you decided to go to the prom night just because i asked you to . 
and we texted the whole night too . 
we talked , we laughed in front of your friends . 
i thought we're okay . 
I THOUGHT !
that bitch from my school ' invited ' you to dance along at the dance pool . 
yeahhhh as i said ,
' invited ' !
she HOLD your hand !
WTF !
i saw that whole scene !
I AM FUCKING DISAPPOINTED !
listen up ,
though you guys were just friends , or maybe more than that ,
or i dont know what should i say bout you guys ,
I AM PISSED OF !
no , i'm dying of JEALOUSY !
damn you BITCH !
can you please stop bitching around guys !?
i mean , my boy ?!!!
EFF YOU !

 believe me i will choke you real bad , bitch !

you never know how important you are to me, love ! =(

yeahh , 
after that scene ,
which made me soooo fucking down ,
i went to drink up with friends .
they tried to control me from drinking too much ,
but i just cant stop myself from drinking .
that scene kept appearing in my mind . 
it hurts .
IT HURTS SO BAD !
i drank alot last night . 
was a lil' drunk .
but still , 
it didnt help reducing the pain inside . 

feel so miserable right now .
what should i do ?
sigh . 

- DREY - 
30/12/2011 2244pm

YOU'RE THE ONLY EXCEPTION BABY ♥

i'm back, once again people !
am just too lazy to drop some words in my blog .
well . 
lotsa stuffs happened when i'm off this few weeks . 
first , 
i had the best time ever in KL with my awesome cousins !
bought a luggage of clothes ! -.-
damn !
i never felt enough man !
of course , 
he's with me all the time . 
literally -.-
we texted all the way in KL . 
felt the love ♥
i'm so so so so TOUCHED when you came all the way from your hotel to look for me at Midvalley .
unfortunately , 
we didn't get to meet each other . 
damn that fucking Midvalley Megamall ! 
there's no line connection in the mall . 
this made us lost contact !
when i reached hotel , 
text tone rang like hell !
text from you , love =)
you said you'd reached the mall , 
and wanted to meet me up . 
i called you straight after i read your message . 
but , 
you did not answer .
few minutes later , 
you called back .
you said you're heading back to hotel . 
i can feel that you're kinda disappointed for not meeting me up .
it's alright baby .
we've so much time with each other now ♥
i felt the love from you ,
from that moment =')

you're perfect for me , bby ♥

i had the best time whenever i'm with you, my dearest :)
have you guys ever get to have a chance to spend your christmas eve with your loved ones ?
i've experienced this on christmas eve 24/12/2011 =)
and i swear !
christmas this year is THE BEST christmas ever !
you're such an awesome one baby !
you cared so much about me when you kept asking me if i'm okay when i'm sick .
you'd buy me stuff to eat whenever you find something nice . 
you'd ask for my decision about where are we going when we dated each other out . 
you don't mind letting me to get to know about your phone's password , you'd type in in front of me . 
the most important one , 
you'd never fail cheering me up ! ♥

you came my house with love during christmas .
what makes me love you more is that , 
you're not freak out when you're with my whole group of cousins and my parents .
AWW !
this is what that made me feel so touched !
you stayed for the whole night . 
you've made me the happiest person on earth on christmas day which meant ALOT to me !
we chatted , we laughed , we played games in front of my parents and cousins . 
i'm really surprised that night !
thats the best night ever with you , bby ! 
we're soooo close and i really felt the love ! ♥


the awesome moment when you sang Selena Gomez's ' Love you like a love song ' in your car when we're on the way back from church on christmas eve ♥

祝大家都可以很幸福 !
真心祝福大家 =)  


- DREY -
27/12/2011 2232pm

HUMAN'S HEART = UNPREDICTABLE

i don't know what should i say about today .
not happy nor sad .
am just moody .
was alone in my room for the whole afternoon ,
sit back and think about everything that happened in these few days . 
people's heart and thinking are unpredictable .
when you're treating them with sincerity ,
they just don't give a damn . 
i hate it when people don't understand my feelings . 
people tend to recall you back about stuffs that hurt you the most .
are you dumb or something ?!
fine ,
maybe you just love seeing me getting sad or moody .
let's see in the future .
i won't give a fuck about anything you complaint about him .
and i'll keep bringing back all those ' happy ' memories to you !
you're simply a mood spoiler .
or should i say , 
you don't even deserve becoming my so called best friend .
at least others will comfort me and try to cheer me up .
but you're opposite !
faggot !
now , 
i should just keep quiet about everything .
though it really hurts inside ,
i'll still keep it myself .
telling you will only makes me feel that i'm dumb enough to let another person to hurt you once again !
everything about him has made me gone depressed all this while .
yet ,
you still ' care ' so much about our stuffs .
i don't need them !
all i wanna do now is forget about him and move on with my new life !
i've said that i;m officially done with him !
i'm not expecting anything from him anymore !
if he cared , 
he won't do all those shit !
dumbass !
frustrated !
i wanna leave this place so much !
staying here is like staying in a room fulled with shit !
no one knows how i feel inside !
only God knows !
i won't hope for anything from you anymore . 
i just wanna calm myself down and move on!
God ,
i know You're always there , 
helping me when i fall .
i ask for your help now to let me to move on with the past .
in Jesus name we pray .
Amen . 




- DREY -
09/12/2011 2306pm

LAST WARNING !

this is the very last time i'd say about this!
DONT EVER TRY TO PISS ME OFF WHEN I'M NOT IN THE MOOD!
believe me i'd release my anger fully!
i hate it when people scolded when they dont even know what's happening!
faggot!
i'm trying to calm myself down after all those shit!
you wanna piss me off ?!!
bring it on!
i'm sure you'll regret about what you did!
piss me off again,
i swear you'll be so dead!
i dislike this kind of people!
selfish!
you thought i'm God ?!
you thought i knew everything at the first second?!
f that!
i'm free but people doesnt!
suckah!


DONT EVER PISS ME OFF !


- DREY -
08/12/2011 2318pm

放了自己

从中午1点狂磕食物到晚上8点。
感觉无论怎么吃，
都还不能满足自己。
把自己撑到不行的时候，
大哭一场。
那时候的我，
就像迷路的小孩，
哭着想要一个拥抱。

【心好空，
     像没温度的气球。
      爱让我，
       想起你的时候，
        泪禁不住滑落，
         可惜你永远都不会懂。】

少了你，
我真的会过得比较好吗？
我很怕，
怕没了你，
我整个会变得很颓废。
爱一个人需要勇气，
但，
放弃一个人需要更多的勇气。
你，
一定要很幸福。
好吗？
让我可以不带着悔意，
让我可以潇洒的离开你。
不要让我回过头来，
发现你还停留在原地。
我不想再被你拉回去了。
对不起，
我不想再承受这一切了。

[ never mind i'll find someone like you , 
   i wish nothing but the best ,
    for you too ;
     don't forget me , 
      i beg ,
       i'll remember you still . ]

我们，
可以当一辈子的好朋友。
比好朋友更好！
当不了情侣，
我们还是朋友。
我们还是可以像以前一样，
在星巴克喝咖啡聊是非，
你开车载我去看摩登房子，
去我们最爱的919咖啡厅吃午餐。
关于我们的回忆，
我都不会忘记。
我会永远永远记得这一切。

给你的最后一封信：

嗨。最近好吗？快一个月没看到你了。希望你过得很好。
下个星期三你就去KL了，玩得开心点喔！
你跟我说过你要买手表，别忘了买喔。
可以答应我一件事吗？
答应我，你每天都会过的很好。
答应我，你每天都会笑着度过。
答应我，你会照顾自己。
最后，也就是我的心愿。
答应我，你一定会很幸福。
答应我，你会找到更好的。
好吗？
=')
再见了，我最亲爱的。

From : Drey

祝福我的朋友，
我的姐妹，
都可以很幸福。
我，
也要很幸福。
 

- DREY -
08/12/2011 2122pm

累了

i - gave - up
listen up people !
i said i gave up !
once again , 
you disappoint me .
wtf are you thinking there ?
you think you're king after hurting people isit ?!
you're such a faggot !
i thought you're different !
but ,
unfortunately ,
you're one of the suckah too !
i'm so frustrated bout things happening these two days .
why would you do this to me ?!
why ?!
i may be a nobody to you , 
but you meant something to me !
well .
what i gotta say now is ,
i've made a wrong decision before . 
which is to get into you .
if i didnt make the silly decision that time , 
i wouldnt have hurt this much . 
who to blame ?!
myself !
what makes me hurt the most is you lied !
YOU LIED !
again and again !
dont ever comply with anyone about anything if you cant manage to do it !
i'm fed up of all your shit !
officially giving up on you now .
hope has gone . 
expectation has lowered to the minimum .
guess time will heal me .
pleaseeee .
i wanna be happy .
am such a happy person , 
but you've changed me !
cause of you ,
i've changed to an emo girl !
I DONT WANT !
GAVE UP GAVE UP GAVE UP !

[ all of our memories so close to me ,
  so close to me ,
  just fade away. ]


[ thanks for acting like you cared , 
  and making me feel like i'm the only one ! ]


[  谢谢你，
   是你陪我走过那些路，
   痛，
   是以后无法再给你幸福。]

[ 也许，
  在另一个平行时空里， 
  我们是在一起的。]


i'm done with you !
goodbye love .
我会过得比你更幸福。
你也要幸福。
真心祝福你。





- DREY - 
08/12/2011 1424pm

痛

it feels so pain inside
i think it's time to give up.
Lord, please guide me.
tell me what should i do to protect myself.
i don't want this thing to spoil my holidays.
i just wannt live my life to the fullest,
not suffering from all this unpleasant stuffs.
Oh Lord, You're the one i can rely on now.
You're always there whenever i need You.
You never fail to cheer me up.
You're always there to help me up.
Yes, Lord.
i need You now,
i'm so down tonight.
is everything gonna be alright tomorrow?
i hope things like tonight will never happen anymore.
i don't wanna get hurt anymore.
in Jesus name we pray.
Amen. 

i feel that there's still a certain distance between us.
i don't know what should i say about that.
i always feel that you're way up high,
and it's hard for me to catch you high up there.
sometimes, 
i'm tired of waiting.
waiting for something that never comes true.
i hope everything turns out to be different.
but, 
will this happens?
i really hope it will.
this is what i want,
this is what i prayed for.

pleaseeeeee.
i shall stop thinking about these stuffs.
somebody out there please help me!
=(
i'm lost now.
insecurity kills!

- DREY -
08/12/2011 0115 am

飞机

我 被放飞机了。
心情真的跌到谷底。
不是说好了吗？
怎么说不能就不能？！
我他妈的真的很想海扁你一顿！
昨晚不是还好好的吗？！
妈啦！
* 中指 *

我很是失望。
失魂落魄的我·。
在知道被放飞机后，
立刻打给黄姐求救。
失望失望失望！！！
随便整装后就去黄姐店里跟她诉苦。
我的心，
有谁能懂？
又有谁能抚平这已经碎得无法拼装回去的心？
你好自私！
真的很自私！
为什么就不能试着体会我的心情？！
难道你还不懂我的心吗？！
你说嘛！！
我以为我的坚持是对的！
可是，
你却让我一再的觉得我的坚持只不过是个自欺欺人的坚持！
我，
彻底失望！

我们可不可以回到从前？
回到彼此暧昧的时候？！
可以吗？
当信息铃声响起，
不详的预感涌上心头。
是的没错。
是你传来的信息。
信息里头写着，
等下我不能去，要不明天见？
他妈的曹林待！！
老娘如果他妈的没那么喜欢你，
一连串的三字经早就发射去你信箱里了！
你令我太失望了！

这样伤害喜欢你的她，
很爽吗？
你以为所有女生都那么坚强吗？！
对不起！
我不是你以前的她！
我不是你想象那么勇敢！
我害怕受伤！
也不想心在受伤！
你到底懂不懂啊！
为你流过的眼泪，
你从来都不知道心有多痛，
你从来都不知道心受了多少伤！
所有的痛，
来自你，xxx先生！

我有说你可以放弃我吗？！
你他妈的那个耳朵眼睛听到看到我说你可以放弃！
我不要你放弃!
还没开始的旅程，
你就以为前方有很多障碍。
但，
你从来没想过，
旅途中可能充满美丽的风景。
你没尝试过，
怎么知道结果是怎样呢？！
我从来没觉得那么无助过。
是你，
让我这么堕落。

此刻的心情，
很糟。
天使说，
别放弃。
机会是留给准备好的人。
而你，就是正在准备和他相守的那一个。
恶魔却在一边跺脚说，
是时候放弃了。
如果机会是属于你的，
你们的爱情旅程早在之前就开始了。
我该怎么办？
有谁能告诉我，
我该怎么办？！
=(

so,
it's very hard to be with me huh?
why can't you just fcking understand what i've did to you is dedicated to you?! 
you've cause such a great disappointment to me tonight.
i convinced myself not to get mad at you nor giving up on you.
but,
i just can't forget about stuff tonight.
i'm really fed up of all this shit!
maybe i should really lower my expectation now.
i shouldn't expect anything from you anymore,
because i know,
if i expect more,
i'll be disappointed even more.
:(

i'm controlling myself.
tears of disappointed,
tears of heart-break.
can you please stop all this shit ?!
i've enough !!

- DREY -
07/12/2011 2347pm

STILL WAITING !

我还在等。

等你的答案。

等待所有的不可能。

有人说，

只要坚持自己的梦想，

它就会实现。

我的梦想，

真的会实现吗？

=S

 

有时候我觉得自己很可笑。

事实明明已经摆在眼前了。

但还是不肯放弃。

-放弃也是另一个开始-

问题是，

我就是不想放弃啊！

大家不是说心中只要还有不甘心，

就不到放弃的时候。

我不甘心！

真的不甘心！

你以为一句好朋友就能打发我吗？！

哼！

你错了。

心，虽然脆弱。

但，

我能掩饰伤痛。

继续朝你前进。

我想信，

我会让你卸下心房的！

 

钢琴。

曾经是我生命中重要的乐器。

每当我的手指在黑白琴键上挥舞，

我才发现，

时间原来可以停留在那一刻。

琴声好美。

可是，

我逼不得已放弃弹琴。

放弃的那时，

眼泪滑过脸颊。

我舍不得。

我爱弹琴。

琴声总会把我的心事带走。

让心里的痛少一点。

可是，

现在的我，

已经回不去弹琴的时候了。

只能把弹琴是美丽的回忆藏在心里的最深处。

</3

 

- DREY -

06/12/2011 1715pm 

WE FOUND LOVE !

每个人的爱情观都不同。
我想要的爱情，
不就是普通的恋情。
不需要太张扬。
我只想要谈一场简简单单的爱情。
怎么就不给我个机会呢？
我一直在等待。
等待你来到我身边。
不过，
你就是那么固执。
一直在我的周围徘徊。
一直在烦恼该不该跨出那条线。
我说啊，
你就跨过来嘛。
我就是在等待这一刻啊！ 

i love you !
我想告诉你这句话很久了！
就他妈的没有勇气！
没关系。
等时机到了，
你要我讲几千次，
我都无所谓。
所有关于你的事情，
我都想关心，
我都想知道。
当你不开心的时候，
我愿意成为你的听众。
我答应你，
我会静静的在你旁边听你诉说你的不满。
然后给你一个拥抱。 

♥

yeahhh !
you're one that i can't have.
but still, i love you.
whole heartedly.
i'm serious here.
=S
what do you think about me?
=X

how i wish you'll know what's on my mind.
and give me your answer that i long for !
could you please,
please give me the answer that i wished for?
pretty please. 
=/

请容许我在这里告诉你我想要对你说的话。
 因为你的出现，让我这个大小姐愿意为你付出一切。
因为你，我学会低头。
因为你，我收敛我平常会对男生发的脾气。
因为你，我学会怎么去爱一个人。
I MISS YOU !
i really do ♥

i want you !
yeahhh i want you babyyyyy ! 
=S

dedicated to my love - EKYC- 

♥ 

- DREY -

05/12/2011 2239 pm

PARTY TIME BABYYYY !!

HOLY SHITTTTTT !
SPM IS OVERRRRRRR !
YEAHHHH BABYYYYY IT'S OVERRRR !!
I'M FEELING SO FLY NOW !!!
WOOHOOOOOOOO !!

time really flies.
omggg.
still can't believe that spm is OVER !
in just a clip of an eye !
omgg !
i don't have to wake up early anymore.
i don't have to wear school uniforms anymore.
i don't have to go to school anymore.
no more homeworks, etc !
gawddddd !!
darn it !
am on top of the world now babyyyyy ! 
xD

after biology paper 3, 1530pm,
all of us were shouting out loud of happiness !
we hugged each other whole heartedly !
omggg !
i somehow miss my classmates though !
:S
went home at 1600pm.
online straight away and show off my happiness to those that haven't finish their exam !
xD
was busy with manicure and pedicure.
bathed and went to sister's house - keke - .
make up at her house, like a boss ! (Y)
wendy drived us to bla bla bla.
woooo !
such a great atmosphere there !
but but but.
the food there is darn expensive. 
faggot !
but it's worth it though.
=)
our first place to go after spm. 
memories ♥
drank up there - ribena vodka -
damn !
it sucks !
i thought it'd be an awesome drink.
after a few sip, i almost puke !
dammit !
ribena taste weird with vodka !
i rather drink plain ribena or vodka then the mixture of both of em !
ughhhhhh !
wasted my money !
we took alot of photos there though !
not only there ! 
EVERYWHERE !
LMAO !

YES I JUST LOVE TAKING PICTURES ! 

♥

OMG !
what i wanna do now is SHOPPING !
i got hell lots of things to buy NOW !
especially cosmetics !
omg !!

yeahhh man !
i need em !
i need em !
I NEED EM !!!!
darn it !!


YAY !
counting down to 15 more days !
can't wait to go KL !!!!
i'm soooo gonna bring the whole KL back !!
woohooooo !! 

♥

imma go watch all the dramas i've missed out now !!!
yeahh babyyy now !
will post up photos later on !
wait for me people ! 
=)




by : QUEEN

- DREY -
30/11/2011 2340 pm

READY TO GET HIGH ?!

YEAHHHHH BABYYYY !
tomorrow's the last day !
I CAN'T WAIT !!!! 
schedule is FULLLL !
for those who wanna hang out with me, please make an appointment with me.
or else you'll lose a chance to go out with me :P

i can't imagine my life after spm !
IMMA GET HIGH EVERYDAY !
LET'S ROCK THIS OUT !
tomorrow, 30/11/2011 !
imma go drink up with sisters !
hey keke !
let's drink up !
or should i say, LET'S GET DRUNK ?!!
i've been waiting for this moment for months dy man !
rock it !!!!!


wooo ! maybe this is how we look when we're drunk ! (Y)

but, who cares ?!!

damn ! how i wish this comes true !!

imma sleep, eat, play, sleep, eat, play, ............
everyday after spm !
oh ya ! and hanging out with my bitchesssss of course !
damn !
love it !


 yes yes yes !! after spm !! (Y)

wooooo ! 

 i'm easy to be with.
if you know me well.
but if you don't, i'm sorry.
i just gotta tell you ' i don't give a fuck ' about what you think about me.
for those who knows me, they know my style and stuffs.
they do tolerate with me.
yeahh this is why i love my sisters !
for those who bitch about me, continue it.
cause i don't give a shit !

sisters are meant to get to know each other well.
and accepts their weaknesses.
yeahhh i'm glad that i have one --> keke
we do quarrel at times and have cold war.
but soon we'll be okay dy.
i realized that after quarreling, i get to know her more.
this is how we tolerate with each other.
yeahh babyyy, i just love my friend !
hurt her, imma break your face, faggot !


OMG THIS IS SOOOOO ME ! XD

AND THIS !! XD

i'm eff-ing hungry !
I NEED FOOD !
FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! 


baby you're so tempting ! damn !

damn i neeed them !
hungryyyyyy !
FFFFUUU !


i'm off to relax my mind now !
feeling so flyyyyy now !
can't wait for tomorrow babyyyy !
♥

- DREY- 
29/11/2011 1636pm